This afternoon I watched my wife get wheeled off into surgery, the second time this year, for what we hope/expect to be the final thing that needs to happen before she receives full healing in her back. After the experience we had back in January with the first surgery, we were a little aprehensive about returning to the same hospital as before. Although this time around, we are fully prepared and expectant that God will bring about healing, one way or the other.
So, while I wait the four or so hours to hear news and be reunited with Emma, I choose to wait filled with His Peace and Presence. Waiting can be painful. Waiting can be overwhelming, if we let it. It’s a choice, and today I choose to wait from His Presence and Peace.
There has been a lot of comments made to me over the last few months “You’re the Director of Healing Rooms, surely you can heal her back…” As if healing had something to do with me! Of course, we have prayed many times over the months for her healing, continuing to hold on to Hope, but whether God wanted to heal her supernaturally or through the hands of the doctors, doesn’t much matter to me. He is still good. It’s still His will to heal. Just last week we had a report back from a lady I prayed for who, for 42 years had suffered from Endometriosis. As I prayed for her, she felt nothing. It wasn’t until the next day when she woke up, pain and sickness free, for the first time in 42 years.
We live in a world full of tension – Kingdom here but not fully, where some recieve full healing while others still wait their turn. I wont let my circumstance and situation change my view of who God is. God is who He and the Bible say He is, and not who my circumstance may try and tell me He is.
This morning, Emma and I chose Joy over fear, Peace over anxiety, and I remain filled with that. It’s in our waiting that we often grow the most. So these last six months, I have grown a lot!
So, whatever you are waiting for today, do it from a place of Peace and Expectancy that God is at work…because He is.
We often find it hard to be open to others, especially in this culture of “Keep Calm and Carry On”, but that is not how God intended us to be living. The enemy would love for us to remain silent on matters, and keep things pressed down, believing it to be better to keep things hidden then to bring them out in the open. We begin to believe lies about our situation – I am the only person to feel this way, or If they only knew the truth, then they wouldn’t like me quite so much… These lies, when allowed to, give the enemy authority to rule them over us, preventing us from moving forward and weighing us down as we live out our lives. Jesus came so that we may live a life free from burdens and junk, so that we may be free to enjoy live to the full. Anytime we are not living in this way, we are perhaps still holding on to a lie from our past.
There is something powerful that happens when we open up to someone and confide in them. I believe that God honours those who are vulnerable. The bible tells us to confess our sins to each other, not to keep them penned in, which will only bring us ruin. When we actively speak out our sins to each other, we are releasing ourselves from the bondage of that sin. Freedom comes when we do this, fullness comes when we do this. By confessing to others, we are breaking the power the issue has had over us, and giving room for God to restore us back to what He has intended us for.
Of course this doesn’t mean we go around bearing all for all to see, we must be careful about who we confide in. Proverbs tells us to guard our heart, Jesus tells us not to throw our pearls before swine, we need to be wise to who we open up to.
Vulnerability is not a sign of weakness, but of strength. When we recognise the need for opening up, sharing what’s on our heart, we recognise that we were made for community, for union with others. The enemy would love to isolate us, and make us think that we are the only person on the planet dealing with that particular issue.
A hidden sin will fester and manifest itself in many different ways in our life, it’s time to break that power, it’s time to get vulnerable. When given space, what was once a small issue in our life has now become massive. If God already sees you as holy and blameless, then what use is it to hold on to something you have done it the past, believing that the best thing to do is to keep it covered up? That’s not helping anybody, especially yourself.
It may not necessarily be a past sin you are dealing with, it could be hard for you to just open up and share your emotions with someone. Men are particularly good at this. They find it hard to distinguish between emotions and so blanket it by saying they are tired, or hungry, when really there is more going on then they are willing to share, or even then they are aware of.
So, how are you doing when it comes to opening up, to being vulnerable with someone? Sometimes it is a trust issue, where we have been hurt in the past and so don’t want to fall into that trap again, when really we need to forgive the person who hurt us, and move on, recognising that there is, in fact, power in vulnerability.
Last Sunday I had the incredible opportunity to preach at a church in the beautiful town of Pitlochry, such an amazing part of the country filled with some of the friendliest folks around. After the service, we had a time for people to come up and receive prayer for healing. The first lady we prayed for had arthritis in her shoulder, which caused pain as well as clicking in her joints there. As we prayed, she began to feel the pain leave her shoulder, much to her surprise. We prayed again, and the clicking had completely gone. She was blown away by the Goodness of God. God honours the prayers said with expectancy. When we partner with Him and release healing, rather than plead for it, He is moved by our faith in who He is, it’s in His very nature to bring healing to all who come to Him.
I then had the absolute privilege to pray for a man who turns 90 next year. I was amazed at this man, his faith, his testimony, his love of God and the hunger he had showed throughout his life. Here was a man, who although almost 90, understood that as long as he is alive on this earth, God still has a plan and desire for him to live a pain free life.
Too often I see people accepting their sickness or pain as just a way of life and something they have to put up with, rather than believing that God has more in store for them. You are not too old to receive healing. This man understood that. He knew that one touch from God and his shoulders would be healed.
What struck me was this man’s hunger for God, which he had shown throughout his life, constantly seeking out more of God. I was almost in tears as he was telling me his testimony, his hearts desire to know God and to experience what it means to be born again. It was this hunger that had brought him up to receive prayer from me on Sunday. May we never lose our hunger for God. May we never become content with what we have. You are never too old to receive a fresh touch from the Lord, whether its healing you need, or breakthrough in another area, stir up your hunger for God, seek Him out and, as the Bible says, He will be found. He loves to be found. He loves to reveal His love and passion for you, His desire for you to be healed and set free.